On the weekend I got myself some new running shoes, one of the big sport department stores was having a massive sale and I got a good pair of running shoes and 3x pairs of sport socks for $82!! I am so happy with my bargain considering the shoes were normally $130 and the socks were $15!!
Now I just have to go out running haha, doesn’t help that it has turned into winter here again! Today we had norm CHC weather four seasons in one day and I mean literally. This morning it was poring down with rain and had southerly winds then the sun came out and it warmed up then it HAILED then the sun came out again and it got really warm outside! All this happened before 1400.
Well one good thing that is happening with the warm weather I am getting more motivated to do things lol.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
The Feelers and Dave Dobbyn
Last night I went to The Feelers and Dave Dobbyn! It was awesome, two totally different bands but such an awesome night as both are so talented!!
GO KIWI BANDS!!!
This week has been mayhem! It started off quiet but then I got given the Ice Hockey flights to look after and this isn’t an easy job! Especially when you have to do twice the work you would norm do for a quote and they may not even book within the period that they have to book so you I will have to do it all over again! This frustrates me so much!! What makes it worse is that I am getting international files to look after that relate to Ice Hockey and I am not even an international consultant! So don’t know how to deal with them!!! So f’n frustrated!! I need something that I can’t get ;(
Monday, September 22, 2008
Pictures of the House!!
Some pcitures of the house!
Above: Looking over the garden, and guess what the grass goes even further around the corner! Loving the PINK trim!! My bedroom window, one of the three!!
Will post more pics when I get hold of them!
Below: Around the corner, look at all those roses! Gona be so pretty when they flower!!
Above: Looking over the garden, and guess what the grass goes even further around the corner! Loving the PINK trim!! My bedroom window, one of the three!!
Below: Is looking from the hallway through to the lounge, on the right is the Kitchen, to the left is the BBQ!! area and one of the garden areas!
Will post more pics when I get hold of them!
It's a HOUSE!!
Yay I am moving into an actual house!! Not a small flat or apartment, a house!! With lawns and a garden plus a VEGETABLE GRADEN!! I am so excited about this, at the moment I am going stir crazy where I am currently living I feel so locked in! We have no out doors area except for a small balcony that if you go out on the whole world can see you, I guess that’s over exaggerating but that’s how it feels, I am a private person I like my privacy..
My bedroom is going to be at least twice the size of the one I have now which wouldn’t be hard to do. Mum is putting black out curtains in it plus voles so I can have my privacy without blocking out the sun. We are painting all the bedrooms and the lounge as the lady loved PINK and PURPLE!! The lounge is a bright pink it is so sick!! But luckily we are painting it before we move in so we won’t have to look at it.
Another thing I am excited about is having a laundry inside! My current laundry’s only entry is via going outside the house and I hate this! But in months or so time I wont have to!!
Yay!!
Well I am over typing for today as typed an 11 page proposal for some stupid corporate client
that I won’t even get as Debra (my oo) will take over!!
My bedroom is going to be at least twice the size of the one I have now which wouldn’t be hard to do. Mum is putting black out curtains in it plus voles so I can have my privacy without blocking out the sun. We are painting all the bedrooms and the lounge as the lady loved PINK and PURPLE!! The lounge is a bright pink it is so sick!! But luckily we are painting it before we move in so we won’t have to look at it.
Another thing I am excited about is having a laundry inside! My current laundry’s only entry is via going outside the house and I hate this! But in months or so time I wont have to!!
Yay!!
Well I am over typing for today as typed an 11 page proposal for some stupid corporate client
that I won’t even get as Debra (my oo) will take over!!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
The Budget
Well last night and I sat down with my mum and looked over my budget, what I can save and what I am going to need money wise for Australia. It didn’t turn out as well as I was hoping. Realistically I can’t move to Australia as soon as I had hoped. I am guttered about this but I want to do it the right way for me and that means extending the date of when I am moving. I am aiming for July/August now.
In the mean time I am going to find myself a new flat as I am not happy where I currently am. Hopefully I can find a flat where I think I will be happy in the time being.
In the mean time I am going to find myself a new flat as I am not happy where I currently am. Hopefully I can find a flat where I think I will be happy in the time being.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
How Long??
How long do I wait to hear from my boyfriend before I let him know what I am doing? Do I wait a week more? A month? How long? I am so lost on what to do. I never know if the decision I make is the right one, with every decision I make I have a WHAT IF? What if I waited longer and he replied? What if I was more patient? Argh stupid what ifs? But no matter what I do I can’t seem to shake them!!
Orienteering
Today I went orienteering, it was good to get out and do a different form of exercise and having to use my brain at the same time was a bonus (I only lead us in the wrong direction once lol). Still no email, I feel like I am ready to cry but it hasn’t quite reached my heart yet…just sitting there brewing which isn’t good coz when it happens I wont stop for a while!
My flat mate got home from Blenheim I was starting to miss her company but when we got back to the flat after picking her up I realised that she is just frustrating, wish she was away for a while longer. We sat down and watched TV for a bit, she critised everything that everybody did nothing was right. She even critised these stars from NZ going into the Jamaican Military doing shock treatment saying why is she crying its just jumper from a helicopter into the water but in reality if push came to shove she wouldn’t be able to do it!!
My flat mate got home from Blenheim I was starting to miss her company but when we got back to the flat after picking her up I realised that she is just frustrating, wish she was away for a while longer. We sat down and watched TV for a bit, she critised everything that everybody did nothing was right. She even critised these stars from NZ going into the Jamaican Military doing shock treatment saying why is she crying its just jumper from a helicopter into the water but in reality if push came to shove she wouldn’t be able to do it!!
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Stir Crazy
I am going STIR CRAZY!! How do I stop being stir crazy?? If anybody has the answer please tell me?
The reason why I am going stir crazy you ask? Hmmm where do I start…as I outlined below I am with a guy who is away with the NZ military. He has already been away since May this year and is going to be away until early December also of this year…we have been emailing each other all the time 2-3 emails a week on average some weeks more which I love! Nearly two weeks ago he told me he was going away for a week so I wouldn’t hear from him which is all good coz that’s just what happens. On Tuesday night I went online and found that he was also online I sent him a few instant messages and got no reply. After about 15minutes of this I was completely fucked off so sent him an email saying I was hurt with him not replying and that he needs to start having respect for my feelings. Last night I still hadn’t got a reply so I sent him an email asking to talk to him as I wanted his help to make a few life decisions and gave him one last chance to redeem himself….I am still sitting here waiting for a reply, what annoys me the most as I can see that he has been online but doesn’t have the decency to email me!!!
That there is why I am going STIR CRAZY. I want to move on with my life but can’t until I hear from him and let him know what I am doing!!
The reason why I am going stir crazy you ask? Hmmm where do I start…as I outlined below I am with a guy who is away with the NZ military. He has already been away since May this year and is going to be away until early December also of this year…we have been emailing each other all the time 2-3 emails a week on average some weeks more which I love! Nearly two weeks ago he told me he was going away for a week so I wouldn’t hear from him which is all good coz that’s just what happens. On Tuesday night I went online and found that he was also online I sent him a few instant messages and got no reply. After about 15minutes of this I was completely fucked off so sent him an email saying I was hurt with him not replying and that he needs to start having respect for my feelings. Last night I still hadn’t got a reply so I sent him an email asking to talk to him as I wanted his help to make a few life decisions and gave him one last chance to redeem himself….I am still sitting here waiting for a reply, what annoys me the most as I can see that he has been online but doesn’t have the decency to email me!!!
That there is why I am going STIR CRAZY. I want to move on with my life but can’t until I hear from him and let him know what I am doing!!
Breaking the News
Today I am going to my grandparents house to wash my car and break the news to them that I moving to Australia, not to sure on how they are going to take the news. They will probably be the same as my mum in the sense that I have got a really good job and I am going to be giving it up to get another job doing what? I don’t know if it is the generation difference but they don’t seem to understand that I need to do this and that I am going to get more confidence in myself and will have to break out of my shell to do it, I see it as benefiting me in the long run!
I also showed my blog to my best friend today, she is being so helpful with it all. She has a blog of her own, she hasn’t been doing it for long but I love reading it, I check it everyday to see what’s new. I love the tips that she is giving me they are being a big help!
I have started to talk to my best friend also about moving to Ausie, she is giving me really helpful advice, she pointed out that the time of year that I want to go over is in the middle of the summer which is like 10degrees warmer than the summer I am used to so would probably have trouble coping with it all!
Then I clicked that at the time of the year as it is so close to Christmas who will be hiring staff around that time? Staff that are not temporary any way. Maybe the best thing for me to do is go over in January…it is going to be hard waiting that long but I won’t be able to survive without a job over the Xmas/new year period. Unless I leave my job here the week prior to Xmas, go down south for a week or two then come back to Christchurch spend a day or two here then go over! I think that may be the best option...will have to think about it more and confirm a date soon!! Oh so exciting! :D
I also showed my blog to my best friend today, she is being so helpful with it all. She has a blog of her own, she hasn’t been doing it for long but I love reading it, I check it everyday to see what’s new. I love the tips that she is giving me they are being a big help!
I have started to talk to my best friend also about moving to Ausie, she is giving me really helpful advice, she pointed out that the time of year that I want to go over is in the middle of the summer which is like 10degrees warmer than the summer I am used to so would probably have trouble coping with it all!
Then I clicked that at the time of the year as it is so close to Christmas who will be hiring staff around that time? Staff that are not temporary any way. Maybe the best thing for me to do is go over in January…it is going to be hard waiting that long but I won’t be able to survive without a job over the Xmas/new year period. Unless I leave my job here the week prior to Xmas, go down south for a week or two then come back to Christchurch spend a day or two here then go over! I think that may be the best option...will have to think about it more and confirm a date soon!! Oh so exciting! :D
Friday, September 12, 2008
Memories
Memories, I like these some of the time but at the moment I don't!!!...every where I turn I get reminded of a good time in my life and compare it to what I have now and I feel like I don't have anything good happening at the moment..I am looking well I am 99% sure I am going to move to Australia by the end of the year but could that be me running away from everything here as those memories are still going to be there when I get back...I am so lost
Eeekkk
Hmmm I am not to sure how to start this whole blog thing let alone learning to poor my feelings out through words..I hope everyone can stick it out with me as I go through my ups and downs.
At the moment I literally feel lost in life, how did I become lost?? That is a good question, I hope writing this blog is going to help me answer that question....here goes!
Well I just wrote a whole paragraph and deleted as didn't think it sounded right but while typing this sentence out, I realised that this is my blog and hey I should just put what I type in.
I am going to apologise now for the rambling hopefully I will learn how to construct my blog so I am not rambling all the way through it.
At the moment I am in a long distance relationship, my boyfriend is in the nz military and is currently away. We met up when he was on leave for two weeks and had an awsome holiday together, even though that was the first time we have ever spent that much time together...things have never been smooth sailing with us. I love him I really do, he is an awsome guy but he doesn't appreciate me when we are apart thats not just when he is away but when he is on base he see's me but only enough to keep me attached to him which I used to handle as i didnt really want a relationship but now that i have all these feelings I want more and he has said that we have more and when we all good he talks to me all the time but I am not to sure what makes him shoot off in the other direction but he does it too often. I have reached the point that I am ready to call it quits, I am just worried that I will always have regrets of what if I waited til he was back and seen how it went, but then on the other hand I feel that I have given up a year of my life already why should I keep going like this when I am only happy with the relationship 30% of the time.
Well I am all worded out at the moment.
At the moment I literally feel lost in life, how did I become lost?? That is a good question, I hope writing this blog is going to help me answer that question....here goes!
Well I just wrote a whole paragraph and deleted as didn't think it sounded right but while typing this sentence out, I realised that this is my blog and hey I should just put what I type in.
I am going to apologise now for the rambling hopefully I will learn how to construct my blog so I am not rambling all the way through it.
At the moment I am in a long distance relationship, my boyfriend is in the nz military and is currently away. We met up when he was on leave for two weeks and had an awsome holiday together, even though that was the first time we have ever spent that much time together...things have never been smooth sailing with us. I love him I really do, he is an awsome guy but he doesn't appreciate me when we are apart thats not just when he is away but when he is on base he see's me but only enough to keep me attached to him which I used to handle as i didnt really want a relationship but now that i have all these feelings I want more and he has said that we have more and when we all good he talks to me all the time but I am not to sure what makes him shoot off in the other direction but he does it too often. I have reached the point that I am ready to call it quits, I am just worried that I will always have regrets of what if I waited til he was back and seen how it went, but then on the other hand I feel that I have given up a year of my life already why should I keep going like this when I am only happy with the relationship 30% of the time.
Well I am all worded out at the moment.
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