Been a While

Hello

It’s been a while…a lot has been going on and I am hoping that I can get myself into a good routine to start blogging regularly again… Now where to start??

I joined a gym and have been trying to go three times a week the big word in there is trying, this week all I have managed is twice but that is better than nothing. Today I went to an ab class and man am I feeling it now! Learnt some good exercises with a Swiss ball to work out my abs and man are they good!!

That guy I met turned out to be a dud haha nothing more to say in that sense.

I can’t remember how it came about but me n my ex (that I went out with through high school) started talking again, last week I was having a bad week so he came over to talk n it came out that he still loves me n that he will never be completely happy without me!!

Hmmm well did that make me more lost than ever, I am over him but always will have a soft spot for him. I made the comment the other day that he needed a hair cut, last night he came over to take me out for tea; he had gone and bought new clothes so he would look tidy! Got a hair cut and shaved off his beard all for me!! He also got me some flowers and they are the nicest flowers ever, one red rose one yellow Gerber and one peach/pink rose!! Now the old him would never have done this but in his words he has grown up now I was thinking ok maybe I believe it now. BUT then we went out and got some tea, then went to the video store the whole time I couldn’t relax as it was like I was looking after a child! He acted like a spoilt child the whole time not like a 20-year-old guy.

I have decided that I don’t want to be any more than friends with him, the next step is trying to tell him as I don’t think it will go down well. In all reality though he shouldn’t expect to be any more than friends with me as I have just come out of a difficult relationship so I am no where ready for another one!!

My move went well n for a time being there I thought that I had flatmates but then I tried to get the bond etc from them and they decided that they weren’t going to go ahead and move in anymore! Argh now I am back in the same boat with no flatmates!!

At the moment I feel like I am stuck in one spot at the moment n if I go anywhere I go backwards! Never forwards!! For once I would just like to go forwards even a small step forward as long as it is a step towards getting things sorted!